Open House, Open Heart...

Its 12:22am. I may or may not finish this blog tonight. Probably wont. My eyes are heavy, I am so sleepy but my restless legs & some random pains are keeping me awake. Oh, and of course my wiggling baby. I'm 37 weeks & 4 days! I have had such a roller coaster of emotions & thoughts in the past couple days so I thought I would share.  Im really struggling with the idea of having my baby on the outside (sounds really strange, I know.) I never thought it would be like this but I just have this sudden overwhelming feeling that its just such a rough world & I cant imagine bringing my precious infant into it. To be honest, I never realized what a journey of trusting in God this was going to be. I never imagined thinking my baby is safer in me, and I'll stay pregnant forever.  If you know the kind of pregnancy I have had, than you will understand what a stretch it is for me to be thinking that way. Puking multiple times a day for  months was no treat, but kee...

Let the countdown begin!!!  So crazy, my little one could be coming anytime. Caleb & I are excited & nervous all at the same time. We finally got our nursery all set up, I'm in love with it of course (pictures to come.) We are trying to spend these last few weeks enjoying everything around us. Im in this season of learning to "embrace the moment I am in." Its a beautiful season... Yesterday I had a baby shower with my sister-in-law & Calebs cousin Suyuan.  My MIL & SIL hosted it! We had such a good time! It was nice to be in the company of loved ones & just have a good time & relax. We are truly so blessed!  The last couple weeks have just been all about baby prep! My parents (Mom & Step dad) came & spent a whole day helping set up nursery & organize baby clothes. So helpful! My AMAZING friend Angela also came over for a day to help me deep clean & organize my kitchen & living room! I then realized I dont move as fas...